MatRiMoNiaLLy CoNteNteD YoUnG WoMaN

Nur Syakirah

2007-01-08T10:20:00.000+08:00

Beautiful princess

36th Week and going on..

2006-11-03T09:10:00.000+08:00

I had my appt yesterday at KKH..Abang accompanied me, as usual..Had a growth scan at 2pm..the radiologist didnt say much to me..she was rather talking to an apprentice..in chinese some more..and she was quite rough when she was doing the ultrasound scan on my tummy..she pressed the eqpt hard on my tummy and it hurt..she didnt even ask whether im ok or not..ask me to turn sideways to have a better scanning access..ask me to cough..i coughed but my girl moved a little..then the radiologist starting poking (like shaking) my tummy, tryng to make my girl moved..so rude n it's painful, mind u..even my own gynae will warned me everytime that her fingers are cold when she wants to measure my tummy n check the heartbeat..worse thing of all, she didnt mentioned which part of my girl she was scanning..how wud u expect me to guess which is her head or body or legs..aiyah..luckily itz only less than 15 mins..if not, i definitely complained..i hope not to ever see or let her do the scanning for me again..oh yes, didnt even give me a complimentary photo of my girl..eee..soo angry..

anyway, after that, Abang & I had our lunch at the Kopitiam..I had my favourite Macroni chicken soup..simple dish but nice..i was still feeling hungry after a bowl but i tried to maintain..dunno why..morning i had my usual 2 slices of multigrain bread with a piece of cheese..after that, we walked around the shops for a while (almost an hour) before proceeding back to the clinic..i took my queue number and routine tests to register for my 2.55pm appt at the clinic before going for my scan at 2pm..coz i really cannot tahan my bladder as i've been holding it from office for the routine tests..

went in to see Dr Marianne at abt 3.55pm..waiting time wasnt that bad..unlike the last 2 weeks..we waited almost 5.30pm for my 2.55pm appt time..dat one was terrible..fasting mth some more..cannot eat nor drink..juz sit down waiting & waiting..my gynae had to go for an emergency operation dat day..so oklah..so as per normal, Dr Marianne checked this n that n I'll see her next week and the week after until i've given birth..told me frm the scan dat my girl now roughly weighed abt 2.7kg..her size n heartbeat are good..but told me to maintain my weight..more exercise for me..

after that, we went to Toys R Us to get Danial's present for his party this sat..den later we went to Bedok to pick Syakir up..Met the rest at Cik Tam's house for hari raya..after that, we went to Nek Asmah's house before proceeding to go home..very tired..we went to Cik Teh n CikYat's houses the night before..makan chappati n murtabak..

right now, i feel like going back home..no mood to work..juz having my usual migraine..either im too tired or not enuf sleep..not dat im not sleepy at night..itz juz getting more n more uncomfortable sleeping sideways n even lying on my back..even wen i sit too long on the chair or sofa, not comfy..i sometimes resort to sitting on the floor..anyway, next is my last week of working before i go for my maternity leave for 8 weeks..then i'll be back on 8 Jan 07..for the rest of the 4 weeks or 20 working days that im entitled to, i'll take in short days of leave..see how..maybe 2 or 3 days leave every week..provided it doesnt clash with my bedok PIE project next yr..

dunno whether to take mc or half day leave..really dun feel like working today..tonite Mak Usu is coming over for hari raya..so maybe i'll buy some mee goreng or murtabak later..

kaylah..i nid to settle some werk..will blog again in time..

Alritey..

Wat a Month!!

2006-09-28T10:08:00.000+08:00

Yikes!! itz been soooo looonnggg since I've blogged..me very busy..with work esp..gots lots of junction fibre diversions to prepare n plan..furthermore we're moving to Yio Chu Kang in a week's time..so we're packing n packing those bulky equipments n slowly moving those stuff we can move first one at a time..n guess wat, maybe by 2 years' time, we'll be moving to Pasir Ris..sigh..waste of money only these ppl..watever it is, itz gonna sucked big time coz there wun be any shopping malls nor a wide variety of food stalls..there's only one malay stall (the only stall) in the canteen and around the area, there's isnt any other stalls..the nearest i think wud be the jalan kayu roti prata..sigh..looks like i can slim down as well as save money wen i get there..abang sure happy..

niway, enuf abt work..i went for my 7 mth growth scan last week and cudnt see the baby clearly..dunno wat the radiologist was scanning at..she said, "this is the head..this is the tummy..etc"..i went "uhuh..uhuh..uhuh..."..but dunno wat i uhuh for also..dat day, abang took half the day off and we brought syakir along as well..syakir was practically following wherever i went..he stood beside me during the scanning..even while Dr M was checking the baby's heartbeat..followed me wen i checked my weight n bp..abit naughty dat day..dun wanna walk..asking his papa to carry him most of the time..i wanted abang to follow me coz on dat day i got scanning appt..so he can see his daughter..n to bring syakir along since he had never follow me for appts before..but dat was a bad idea..one thing is the very very looonnnggg waiting time juz to see the doctor..even after having our lunch and came back abt an hour later frm my appt time, we still nid to wait another hour..n syakir wudnt sit still..talking in loud voices n runnung here n there.. i gave up..i brought him outside to get some drinks n snacks..quieten him down for a while before he started to wan to pour his own drink frm the cooler..sigh..n it started all over again..

den after my appt, we dropped by at John Little dept store to get the Quinny Zapp stroller for syakir..since it was on sale at 299 frm 399..finally we decided on the blue colour instead of orange..only 2 options of colours by the way..so while waiting for abang to pay for the stroller first, syakir n i looked around the store for other stuffs..the salesman who was in charge of the Quinny stroller was abang' s army friend..so he showed us ways to remove the covers n to fold the stroller..wen abang was queuing, he assembled the stroller for us n let syakir sat on it..after abang has paid, we thanked him n he went off..suddenly abang asked me to get out of the store quickly..i said why..i still wanna shop for other stuff..he said next time..i thot he must haf coincidentally saw his ex-gf n wanting to avoid her or something..but wen we're finally at level 1, he said he paid only 149..i asked him why..he dunno know..he only know dat his friend gave the cashier a yellow card to pay before collecting the stroller..then the cashier scanned n the register stated 249..n since abang is paying using the robinson's member card, there's a 100 off..so itz 149..abang was surprised but didnt mentioned anything to the cashier..coz he thot his friend was kind enuff to give further discount as staff..i told abang it cudnt be coz the price of 149 is the cost of the battery-charged car on sale there..better looked at the receipt..yikes, itz true..the receipt was printed as car..i was like yikes!!..we got a Quinny Zapp for half the price of the discounted price..syukur alhamdulillah..rezeki syakir..n no, we didnt cheat anyone..it was pure coincidence dat the guy made an error n we tot otherwise..furthermore, at least we paid 149 rather than not paying anything at all..n syakir likes his Quinny..wudnt share wif his cousins...naughty..but in the end, he let them haf a try..the stroller is a breeze to push esp wif syakir's weight..wif his lucky baby stroller, it takes some effort to push..but it can recline..but still not much space him also..but not Quinny..itz in sitting up position..so wen he falls asleep we nid to adjust hishead a bit to make as comfy as possible..but the frame of the Quinny can be exchanged with a baby car seat..juz remove the covers n attached the brackets..n the most impt thing of all, it can be folded to half the size of regular stroller n easily put at the back of our Getz..juz 1/3 of the boot space..nice!!

today is the 5th day of Ramadhan..so far alhamdulillah im fasting n doing well..only thing is dat i get sleepy easily n thirsty..u know, we pregnant ladies tend to sweat alot more than normal becoz of the increase in red blood cells..datz why for these few days, i didnt went out during lunchtime..spent my time inside taking short naps n playing games..walked around for toilet visits n prayers. dats all...most of the time, i'll be sitting at my desk..im practically bored n quite uncomfortable..coz my little girl has been very active these few days..kicking n turning like nobody's business..now i think shez sleeping...or having a rest..if not, my tummy will be like moving n distorted by her stretching n exercising..nevertheless, im still thankful as i know dat she's active n healthy..n the week before my hands n feet were abit swollen due to water retention i think..but now they're much better..i juz wish i cud lie down straight on my back to ease my backache..if only..

alrite den..getting longer..will update again next time..feeling lethargic actually..imagine having to sleep after midnite n den waking up at 4.30am..working thru the day n reach home for breaking of fast n den waiting for abang to finish his terawih..usually after 10pm..den we go home..then i do my housework before getting to bed after midnite again..routine routine..cobaan!!!

Alritey!!!

Little Rascals

2006-08-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

These 2 kids luv to climb e sofa to look out e window at mama's house..wearing a matching CARS t-shirts..like twins!

Did call Syakir juz now..he told me dat he had juz finish watching Out Of The Box..and now continuing with Jojo Circus..All his favourites from Playhouse Disney Channnel..

Yesterday, Abang & I took 1/2 day leave..he sent me to mama's house while he sent the car for service..luckily i didnt follow him..it was more than 3 hrs..and it cost him almost 500..zink!!..at abt 4 plus, we went out to Al-Amin & Al-Iman to check the fees for pra-madrasah for playgorund..we intend to enrol Syakir for the weekend pra-madrasah studies..at least he gets to socialise and learn the basics for duniawi & ukhrawi..he can learn to read doas, surah also..so for now, we're still thinking abt these 2 centres..wen i asked him whether he wants to go to school, he said "taknak"..but he was there at the centre, he was quite fascinated n wanted to go into one of the rooms to "draw draw"..hehehe..

after dat, we went to TKC n Geylang market..walked around to look at stuffs..ate cempedak goreng..abang's fav..wish i cud learn to make that..one day..insyaAllah..niway, we reached home at abt 8pm..by den, Syakir was already asleep..slept till this morning actually..but he did cry n mumble for me a few times last nite..after i gave him his milk, he slept thru the nite..abang bought an antenna juz to get the indonesia n malaysian channels..he wanted to watch Siti Nurhaliza's wedding of the year..

i hinted to him before he set up the antenna that the bedroom toilet is dirty n maybe he can help me to wash the toilet..he said can but he can do it during the weekend..quite frustrated wen i heard dat..in the end, i washed the toilet myself..n he set up the antenna..i was disappointed dat he didnt even bother to ask me to stop n he'll take over or something..once i finished, i took my bath and ignored him wif his antenna..it was ready n the channels we got were quite clear..i cant be bothered so i went to change Syakir's clothings, wash the clothes, hung them, fed the fish, clean the bottles, etc..once i was done wif my housework, i took my milk to bed wif some bread..hungry wat after all those works..still, he acted as though i did nothing..not even a massage on my back or something..i cant be bothered wif his attitude so i juz keep to myself n didnt say much..like always, he'll pretend like nothing has ever happened..sick!arrrggghhh....dun wan to talk abt it..juz make me angry only...last sat i told him to vacumm the house but in the end he spent the whole day sleeping..

roll over to sunday still the same..i shud haf done it myself n left the vacumm cleaner outside on purpose..arrgghghh!!!..

dunno wen he will notice dat my tummy is getting bigger by the minute and my back is straining n i cudnt be as mobilised n agile as before..for him. it's nothing..if i were to say anything, it'll end in either in an argument or ear in ear out..too predictable already..wish somebody cud juz give him a spelling or something..eee..

kaylah..the more i say the more things it'll be..forget it..simple requests can be such a big thing n usually pass off casually..wat more can i say..it sucked sometimes..

Alritey!

25 WeeK AppT

2006-08-17T09:26:00.000+08:00

Went for my appt at KKh yesterday.. had lunch wif nana before heading there..nearly had given up tp take the taxi wen i had to wait for another shuttle bus..but alhamdulillah it came 10 mins later..reached KKH abt 2.30pm and straight away check in ..did my routine test (urine n BP) coz i cud no longer hold my bladder..all normal..n so the bloody wait started frm thereon till 4.10pm..mybutt was cramped..and the waiting hall was so full of people..mind dat my appt time is at 2.50pm..i shud haf gone shopping n come down 1/2hr later..Dr M called in and i was out in 10 mins time..aiyah..was so bored..even read the surah yassin till finished..

after paying for my vitmains at the pharmacy, i went to Mothercare..i bought for my little girl a set of 3 sleepsuits, a set of long sleeve blouse wif pants and 5 pairs of socks..all in beautiful colours shade of pinks n yellow..soooo cute..wanted to buy more but refrained myself to next mth in order to indulge..but if i can find any good buy or sale, i gotta grab it..cannot actually depend on Nana for Adlina's baby clothing since she herself is pregnant also..yes, my sista and i for the 2nd time are pregnant within months..but this time round, im going first..i hope she'll be getting a boy since abg adam really wants a boy this time..insyaAllah..

back to story..after spending on my little girl though i was so tempted to buy more, i took the taxi back home to mama's place..was quite tired with an aching back, so no choice..furthermore, which pregnant lady wants to be crushed or even ignored inthe bus nor the train?..daddy asked why didnt i asked him to pick himup..i said itz ok furthermore he finished at 3pm, so wudnt want him to wait for me..he said itz alrite..so sweet my father..

sigh.. i had my werkplace..not dat i had my job but currently my job is being "taken over" slowly by another person..on the expense of me going for maternity leave soon..so wat do i do wen i come back next year?..n i hate the fact dat the whole place is full of chinese speaking (who actually speaks chinese to one another) and im the only malay around..not i dun understand them..sigh..irritating as it may be to me but wat can i do?..i wanna be somewhere i can do a job dat is permanently mine, not sharing..except the fact dat i do nid covering officer to cover me wen i go on leave..but not taking away my job..itz ridculous wen ur boss asked u to work on dis or dat but af ter a few months, he get someone else to do it for me..not once but many times..is it dat im not a good employee?..or im not doing a good job?..they said cover only but infact they are taking over it..pathetic it may seem but im currently doing zilch at werk rite now..dats why ive got so much time to spare by playing online games and blogging..

no doubt i was promoted but not because of good job dat i've contributed in the dept but the fact remains dat i've been werking here since 2001..sigh..dunno wat to do..i tot of going out but not rite now..maybe during my confinement, i'll check out other vacancies..i like the benefits n pay given here but i cant stand the people (85% are old people abve 50) working here..

kaylah..haf to pretend wif alot pf stuff to do wen infact is otherwise..im gonna find somewhere i find enjoyable to work on..sigh..no wonder i dread going to work every morning..not juz seeing allthose people but also with not much werk assignments..

Alritey..

Testing my new K610i.

2006-08-14T11:43:00.000+08:00

Syakir wen i asked him 2 smile.

HePPy FiReWorKs WeeK!!

2006-08-10T11:05:00.000+08:00

went to watch the fireworks at Marina South yesterday wif his family..sat there since 5.40pm along the stretch of sea..quite crowded but we took a spot further in facing the National Stadium..Syakir had a great time..watching the helicopters flying by, the jets and the chinooks carrying the huge flags..was an awesome view..saw the fireworks after 8pm, i think..it wasnt continous bursting of colours in the sky and was only 10 mins with 5 mins apart..but overall, i was juz glad i got to see the fireworks with my little boy n my darling..Everytime the fireworks started, Syakir will quickly rushed to sit on my lap..hehehe..quite funny..he was fidgetting coz he sat for too long and stood up to pick up some small branches to throw somewhere else..got bored a few times n insisted me to stand up..he said "staaupp"..at other times, he pulled up his t-shirt to show his tummy..took quite a no. of pixs..n yes, he kept saying, "Nina..kut (takut)..pi (bunga api).."..hehehe.. so cute, my darling boy..

Going back thru ECP wasnt bad except that i had to move my seat right to my knee...coz there were 5 adults at the back of my car..was supposed to drop Hadi n Hafiz at Marina Bay MRT station but the traffic was very heavy n we cudnt find the place before we nid to turn towards ECP..since they said they were ok if Abang sent them back all the way to Bedok, so we tahan lah..my leg was cramped coz my knees were bent and my tummy up against my little girl who was lying low..including Syakir who was sitting on my lap..reached home around 10pm to watch Bad Boys 2..washed up, had dinner n by the time the show finished, the boys were already asleep..did some cleaning up and packing of Syakir's stuff coz he'll be going to Bedok the next day before getting in bed..

This morning, we took the taxi to Bedok coz we woke up late..Syakir cried so hard wen i passed him to his grandmother..i quickly gave him a kiss n walked off..was very unbearable but had to..Nurdini n Jazli are not around so dat's why Abang asked whether Mak can jaga Syakir today..Abang did called him later after reaching the office but Syakir didnt wan to speak on the phone..I did called to talk to Syakir but he was drinking his milk..so maybe later lah..

oh ya!..how much i dread to take the bus n train especially peak hours..i stood while in the bus with others oblivious to my protuding tummy..goes the same for the MRT..people are like blind n deaf until most of them reached City Hall..they'll be "asleep" and be as fit and alert wen the anouncer said "City Hall Interchange"..then they'll be charging towards the door as well as the escalator..pushing n rushing are already one thing..wat ugly people they are..wen they are young, they wanna look old or mature..but wen they are old, they wanna look young..so contradicting..dat's why i was very skeptical wen Abang mentioned we took the bus n train..how i dreaded the journey..

today, my little girl is already 6 mths (abt 24 wks) inside me..time passed really fast..next wed is my appt..but i'll haf my scan n glucose test in Sep..i wanna see how my little girl doing..im iss her though i talk to her every night..massaging her with moisturisers and feeling her thrusts n kicks..

oklah, me not much werk today..again...n i dun feel like werking also..felt like resting at home..my back hurts..hinted to Abang but no effort to help to soothe by a short massage or anything..sigh..

Alritey..

TiRiNg WeeKs..

2006-08-07T14:13:00.000+08:00

Wat past few weeks!! Syakir got a new bed..a red sports car..cost me 649 with mattress..pocketed spring somemore..sigh..put it in his room..his ex-toy room actually..got rid some of those toys which were either broken or parts missing..but im still stuck with those big stuff such as his bike, walker, learning table..though im keeping it for his younger sista..bought a set of 14" tv n a dvd player..so dat he can watch his fav Mike Wazouski frm Monsters Inc..comes with a small tv bench..another wooden toy box to stuff his fav toys in and a set of study table with 2 chairs for him to doodle..with his fav set of Bob the Builder stationeries..oh, before i forgot, bought for him a Bob the Builder bedsheet set as well..with a matching construction site anti-slip carpet near his bed....which bloody cost me 80 bucks..dat thign dun haf a price tag n we tot it cost abt 30-40..yikes..save face mah..so buy lah..bought another carpet which road paths and cars for his table an chairs..then bought a chest of 4 drawers for his clothings which im gonna share with his younger sista..until she's big enuff to sleep in her own room next door..except for Syakir's bedside lamp n his upper shelf for books which haf not been drilled n put up yet, most of the stuff are bought in Ikea..i dunno how many times I've been there for the past 3 weeks..so far he has slept alone quite well.. i did check up on him a few times wen I wake up in the middle of the nite..juz to make sure he's not lying with his body halfway down to the floor..sometimes wen he wakes up, he'll either play wif his toys first or go to my room (i left the door open) to "wake" me up before proceeding to ask me to turn on his fav show or play wif his toys..

i still haf not pack my little gerl stuff..im juz not ready to sort her stuff yet..as though im waiting for a miracle to happen..hehehe..not!!..i nid to get started before Ramadan so dat I will not be too tired n big to do these stuff..thot of doing it this weekend..but it's Abang bday this Sat..so i guess i haf on Sun then..dun think it's enuf though!!

Watched the fireworks near Esplanade last Sat wif my sistas..Abang cudn't follow as he got a part-time job as a car surveyor dat day wif his fren..he started werk frm 5am till11pm dat day..checking car shipments at PSA..not bad for 10 per hr of werk..but tiring of coz..niway, the firewerks was way cool..Syakir laid on my lap and watched the fireworks, like an amazing theatre..he was awed , i guess, coz he was quiet n concentrating real hard..Adlina was quite scared by the loud noise..Syakir kept saying "Nina...scared..api.."..so cute..

nowadays, i had to threaten him wif rotan if he wans me to carry him wen we go out..i cudn't carry him anymore coz firstly, i can no longer carry 2 babies at the same time and secondly, im very worried coz my little gerl has been laying breech for weeks already without turning..n its making me very very uncomfortable wen sitting down and sleeping..even easing myself can be a chore..so next week wen I see Dr M, im gonna highlight this serious matter to her..back to Syakir, i juz nid to convince him to hold my hand n walk..i wud turn his attention to something else and he'll start walking..at times he automatically said, " Mama, pimpin."..wen he's up to his moods, i'll tell him dat Papa has his rotan..den he'll think twice..

sigh..so much things to say but kinda too tired to type..very lethargic..maybe not enuff sleep..not much werk to do today anyway..quite bored actually..guess im juz gonna play some games later on before i go for prayers..how i wish im juz werking like 1/2 day everyday..start morning n be back in the afternoon..so dat i can haf some rest n do some housewerk or even my fav stuff like baking or cooking..but the pressure is still there to support 2 families though..i dun wan to burden Abang wif other things..at least wif me werking it'l help him alot..insyaAllah..rezeki Allah ada kalau kita usaha..

kaylah..me now eating some guaa slices to curb my sleepiness for the time being..im quite full frm lunch at LJS juz now..sigh..wish i cud juz lie back onthe sofa near the conference room there..sigh..

Alritey..

Sleepy..zzz.zzz.zzz

2006-07-13T15:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday, Abang took 1/2 day leave to accompany me to see Dr M..so we waited more than an hour to see her and juz abt 10 mins in her room..n another 1/2 hr to pay n book appointments..Dr M said baby's fine..head. limbs, brain all that stuff..except for my baby's abdomen..a little bit big..so she advised me not to eat too much n maintain my current weight..n im trying real hard..so i haf to take care of my diet this time round..will try to cut down on sweet food n drinks..n more exercises n more fruits & vegetables..sigh..

niway, after my appt, we went to watch a movie at Suntec..Pirates of the Caribbean-Dead's Man Chest...came in abt 15mins late..which was a total flop for the ending..all of us were like "huh?..finish already?..got sequel again ah?"..but the movie scenery was great..the beaches, the animation, the costumes, the stunts, etc..quite a number of characters frm previous movie..the Craken and the Captain of the Flying Dutchman..Davy Jones if im not wrong..the octopus was really huge n i dun like those tentacles..even the captain wasnt a good sight to look at..with those squirmy n wriggly like worms on his face..eeeuuuu!!..even his crews were hideous..all are like mutants of the sea..quite scary actually..but the plot was quite exciting..wudnt recommend if ur expecting to know more abt the treasure..too bad the subtitles was in chinese..if not for the witch doctor spoke in slurred jamaican, i wud haf understand it so much better..

oh ya..this morning, Syakir diritied his diapers n i had to clean him up before going to work..n was already late..yesterday, i was abt to put his dirty clothing at mak's house wen i saw his shorts was dirty wif yellow stuff..unknowingly, it was shit..mak said she didnt see dat syakir's pants was dirty..mak told me to rinse n put in the toilet which she wud wash together later wif other clothings..no way hosay..it was already stained bright yellow n i intend to bring it back home n soak it real harsh..i didnt say much but i was a bit upset dat they were not taking care of this minor stuff which has been done every week..

so later at home, as usual i waited till Syakir is almost half asleep or asleep to change to his mamy poko diapers..wen i was changing him, i found that he kinda like "mencerit"..say it's slight diarrhoea..which i've encountered last week..same thing..but i didnt say or think much dat time..in the middle of the nite, i heard something like a fart whic was real loud..i assumed it was his bottle dat cud haf fallen off his bed..i didnt check...after a while, he called out for me..i asked him nicely wat's wrong, darling..he didnt answer n wen i checked, he had fallen asleep again..so this morning, i was abt to put on his sandals wen i saw his diapers in a funny shape..ususally even wen it's full tank, the shape maintains..but this one was very funny..so i checked it was quite heavy..den instinctly, i checked the back of his diapers to double-confirm my assumptions lastnite..wen i saw it, i quickly grabbed him to the toilet..he was crying n struggling to go back to sleep..af ter managing to clean him up wif a new diaper, we quickly went out..told Abang wat happened..all this while, i cudnt smell his shit.. coz for the past few days, my nose is blocked n i can't even smell my fav perfume..let alone this..

i was upset coz perhaps mak gave him something spicy to eat..since i didnt see any soup for dinner last nite..if at mama's house, the kids will be fed wif rice n soup..fish or chicken with potato n carrots..Abang asked mak n she said she gave him wat she gave jazli as well..Abang said maybe they didnt wash his bottle properly..mak said lina washed his bottle using the cleanser i bought previously..i dunno wat else to say..every thing denied..Abang told me to see how next week..if it still continue..haiyah..

kaylah too long already..next time..

Alritey..

20 weeks old..

2006-07-11T15:02:00.000+08:00

had an appt for cardiac scanning dis morning..left office at abt 9.45am and took a cab to KKH..waited almost an hour before the radiologist attended to me..quite crowded today..quite jealous to see most ladies r wif their husbands to accompany them..niway, i went for the first scan which was a thorough screening..the radiologist showed me my baby's spine, back, head, brain, limbs, thighbones, feet, hands, face, eyes and even lips..den wen i asked her whether she knows watz the gender of my baby, she showed 3 little dots..i asked her wats dat..she told me it's the private parts..We're going to haf a baby girl!!..Abang was ecstatic wen i told him te news..Alhamdulillah..after the scan, i had to go for a thorough cardiac scan using a more specialised eqpt..so another radiologist checked my baby's heart..asking to breathe n stopped breathing..for quite a few rounds..i was quite sleepy by den..almost fell asleep..once finished, i had to see another doctor to explain the scan results..she told me everything including the physical state n heart of my baby is fine..i was there from 10am till 12.30pm..tomorrow i haf another appt to see Dr M..

den Abang called me dat Cik Zin called n thot of meeting up for lunch..so they picked me up at KKH in Cik Zin's brand new Wish..very comfy..passenger leg room was spacious even for long legs like me..we had lunch at Sanur in Centrepoint..came back office at abt 2.30pm..

dis morning, Syakir was kinda like got upset wif me...for not allowing him to bring both of pillows to mama's place..i only allowed 1 pillow..he kept crying n repeating "piyou! piyou!" frmthe room till we almost reached mama's place..he didnt even want to salam nor wave goodbye..den in the afternoon, Dada called me saying dat Syakir juz woke up n was lying around covering his face wif his pillow..she passed the phone to Syakir but Syakir didnt say a word..No reply wen i said hello..but wen i told him whether he wanted Bob toys in particular Roley the roller, he juz nodded his head..as Dada said..He kinda like dun wanna talk to me..but i know he still wans to hear my voice..niway, later i'll go n buy his fav toys..

Abang called me juz now to confirm if we're having a baby girl...reassured him again n he was very happy..asked wat did the doctor said..told him dat baby's fine..no probs..aske d me wat shud we name our baby girl..i said anything..he wans it to be Nur Syakirah..i said alrite..

kay..i wanna look up something inthe net..later..

Alritey!

Busy Weekend & France Lost!!

2006-07-10T11:39:00.000+08:00

i was hoping dat France wud win the world cup..but too bad, Italy got it..niway, woke up this morning abt 3am to wake Abang up..by den, it was juz abt to start the 2nd half..n score already 1-1..i cudnt open my eyes dat much coz i kept waking up throughout the nite..cudnt sleep well coz it was quite warm..turned on the fan to a higher speed..den it started to rain with strong winds..woke Abang up to shut the windows up..den Syakir woke up crying..dunno becoz of nightmares or his bad cough or juz feeling warm..wanted me to carry him to sleep but dun wan to sleep on my bed..insisted on sleeping on his bed instead..after a while, he went to sleep..

last fri, my sistas n families stayed overnight at our house..we watched Fast & Furious Tokyo Drift..by den most of us was quite tired already but i think Abg Ian carried on with x-men..but halfway also..they slept in the hall coz itz was much windier and also the aircon in the guest room is giving out warm air instead..gotta fix it soon..we watched x-men for breakfast n den take the lead inthe afternoon n a scary korean movie after dat..Dada came in the afternoon with Abg Ian, who went to pick her up..She was doing closing the nite before..so she brought along of leftover foods frm her store to my place..den abt 5pm mama, daddy came withthe 2 maids..mama brought them for their last shopping at Geylang..den daddy picked them up after werk..mama bought a scary indon movie..abt a pros who tried to kill her own hubby, dun wan his child, very rude to everyone even to her own mother, became pros and even went for "susuk" to make herself looked young..she died horrible death..even the ground wudnt accept her..true story..indon tv channel "TPI" has this kind of dramas..true strories re-enacted so as to serve as a lesson for the Muslims..quite scary some of the shows..Cik Zin also did told me some stories frm the drama before..

My sistas went back at abt 9pm after watching 2 other movies, MAID (thai comedy) and Wolf Creek..MAID was hilarious..shud watch it..Wolf Creek was said to be recountered from actual events..some psycho killed backpackers who went to Wolf Creek..pretend to help them but tortured n killed them instead..so one guy managed to escape n was rescued..He was accused of killing his 2 other girlfriends but eventually acquitted coz they cudnt find substantial evidence n no body was found..scary..

yesterday was Mak's bday n so already told Abang that we can belanja them also with dat occasion..went to Simei Eastpoint to Hans River Table BBQ..at abt 4pm..13 adults including Atan. Mak Usu and her 3 kids..cost me more than wat i spent wif my family..Abang was shocked at first including me but itz alrite..coz they had never been eating out in a restaurant before..so once a while like this, itz ok..unlike withm y family, we're used to this kind of family gathering..They kept asking whether there's tme limit to buffet eating and was quite scared that they were wating too much..only food wasted was frm abg jamil coz they kept on taking but didnt bbq or eat them..luckily the manager didnt charge us for food wastage..and he missed out 1 jug of orange juice..so we didnt pay for dat one either..

niway, i had a very tiring weekend n Abang was asking if i wan to go to Bintan for the weekend..me, Abang & Syakir..of coz i said yes..

tomorrow im going for my baby's cardiac scan only..on wed, i'll be going for the nt prominent scan n visit Dr M as well..insyaAllah, they will be able to tell the gender of my baby by den..

Alritey!

Finally, itz e weekend!!

2006-07-07T11:21:00.000+08:00

Yippee!!..itz friday n the last day of work..im badly in need of blissful sleep..which i doubt i cud get..hehehe..yelah, Syakir stills wakes up as per normal..sometimes i juz keep on sleeping until i cannot tahan his need for attention..usually by 8am or 8.30am..

tomorrow dunno whether Abang got plan or not..my sistas said that they might want to stay over tonite to watch some movies..then Abang said maybe Lina might wanna stay overnight on Sat..sigh..den there'll be world cup finals this sunday morn n monday morn..if not, i'll be glad to haf the whole weekend wif Abang & Syakir only..juz to relax..

today after werk, i'll be taking my new pair of glasses frm Mamat's shop at Jurong Point..Nana also wanna go..she wanted to make a pair as well..itz a light purple frame which Abang said it males me look sweeter..i actually like the other one, matted purple with unique frame, but Abang said itz nice..so i took it..made in last Sat..

another thing, this morning Syakir's diapers "tembus" with lots of shit..luckily it didnt dirty his bed n mattress..but it soaked thru his pyajamas..n fuuuhhhh..it smell horrible..so no choice, although late for werk already, gotta bathe him..Abang helped tidy up the beds while i got him cleaned up..so today we tumpang Nana to werk..

kaylah lunchtime already..still got some werk to do..later then..

Alritey!!

HmmMMmm..

2006-07-05T15:28:00.000+08:00

At Irfan's Bday party last Sunday.
Syakir is much better now, alhamdulillah..he got sick since last Fri but got worst by Sun..so we took him to see the doc at Bedok..doc gave him some antibiotic, flu, cough + plhlegm n fever medicine..since it's not Shenton's clinic so gotta pay..$49..niway, the funny thing is dat he'll cry n struggle if i nid to feed him his medicine..n inthe end, he'll vomit evrything out..he'll cry "mama! mama!" as though he's begging me to stop..heartbreaking lah but wat to do..i think the neighbours might haf thot i was abusing my son coz he was crying very loudly..niway, wen i ask mama whether he struggle or cry wen she gave him the medicine, she said no..he behaved very well n took his medicine without a single noise..n mama nid no force at all..unlike me n abang..this little boy is gonna get frm me..so i told mama to give him his medicine again before we went home..we saw wif our own eyes n he didnt even cry or struggle..he sat down in front of mama n ate the whole thing without vomitting..frust!!

but Syakir seemed to get nightmares i think coz almost evry nite, he'll either cry or stir frm his sleep easily..n me, i cudnt get enuf sleep..partly becoz of Syakir..n partly becoz of my aching back..whichever side i turn for comfort, i wudnt be able to stay for long..in the end wen im too tired to turn, den i fall asleep..by then the alarm will ring n it's time to wake up already..

oh yeah..Germany lost to Italy..so who shall i support now?..maybe France?..watever..i support the opposite team dat Abang chooses...juz to irritate him..hehehe...

bought a nicely arranged flower with shallow vase at Raffles City..vry sweet..cost me $70..niway, Abang put it on the side table with his new standing lamp frm Ikea..looked nice n cosy in the living hall, complementing the brown sofas..he's proud of it..if only he cud be proud of it wen it comes to keeping the house n car clean..den perhaps i wudnt nag so much..

Alritey!!

YiPpEe!!

2006-06-29T09:16:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah..this year's bonus is not bad..got band 3.5..Abang got lesser than me but still good no doubt..he made me came as early as 7.30am juz to check the payslip today..i tried to access a little while ago n the server prompted me to go online later as too many people are accessing the server..niway, this year the atmosphere wasnt as tense as before where most of them will be looking forward to check each other's bonuses..this year seemed quieter than ever..maybe it was due to the fact that our president got way to much bonus this year..3 million dollars..not including wat the top mgmt people got..aiyah..we're the ones who slog so hard for the telephone business n yet they got the credit..sigh..watever!

i told nana abt my promo yesterday..she already told the rest of the family..mama called me abt 6.30pm yesterday to inform me that they were going off to KL already...i tot they are going today but daddy wanted to go yesterday..mama informed that my rendang is already in the fridge and i can collect it anytime after work..den she congratulated me for my promo too..was sweet of her..dada also said the same thing..she'll not be working tomorrow n will be taking care of the kids..

tomorrow then the bonus will be credited into the bank..so great shopping ahead..hehehehe..lots of things in my head..for myself, my little baby, Abang & Syakir..priority i wanna get a new pair of glasses n contact lenses..some new clothings..Baby stuff as per normal..for Syakir a new bed n cupboard perhaps..Abang new clothings, a pair of sandals..oh yes!..a vacumm cleaner..current one look worn out already n not sucking well..niway, we'll see abt it..

kaylah..wanna look up some stuff..later..

Alritey!!

YeaH! FiNaLLy..

2006-06-28T11:29:00.000+08:00

me boss called me at abt 10.30am juz now..as usual I thot since this is coming to the end of the month..he'll ask for many different types of reports to be submitted..usual stuff..niway, he was asking how was I today and blah blah blah..n den suddenly he congratulated me..i was like huh?..guess wat??..I've got promoted..finally..yeah, baby!! alhamdulillah..syukur..promoted to Associate Engineer 2..yeah..after slogging for more than 5 yrs..though me boss havent gave me the official letter yet..

Abang has been bugging me this week on whether I've received any letter or not..he did ask me again this morning..I said no lah coz me boss is not here, at Yio Chu Kang..so wen me boss broke the news and i told Abang, he was very happy for me..n he jokingly said dat now we can change our car..hahaha!!..yelah tu..Abang said alhamdulillah n maybe due to our 2nd baby's rezeki..for me, having this baby in me for the 2nd time is more than a precious gift from Him..but to get this promo to go along wif, i've never felt so blessed knowing dat He is there listening, caring n providing for me n family..

well, i guess i had to "belanja" many people already..families, colleagues esp ex-INOC guys..which i dun mind..

this morning, i was a bit skeptical coz another lady came to the office..another tech..she's supposed to take over Cik Zin's table and sit behind me..dunno how irritating that can be coz more mandarin-speaking people r conquering this small office..sigh..tkl has been guiding her abt alcatel stuff..almost everything..no doubt dat i felt threatened coz i dunno whether shez taking over my job..i'll be going on maternity leave in nov..thus i guess otw must haf had her coming here to cover for me..pathetic rite..obviously those 2 will like it lah coz they were all used to be in one family in exch..so rite now, i dunno whether i shud be happy or angry..wat if i come back next yr n there's nothing left for me to do?..sigh..

kaylah..she's already behind me..n i dun like her to know dat im doing something else like blogging during office hrs..or even wen im surfing for other things..best to do other "working" stuff..sigh..i wish there is balance in this office..

Alritey..

GeRaM aDa, FeDuP pUn aDa!

2006-06-27T17:33:00.000+08:00

Abang called at abt 5pm, telling me dat he had already finished wif his course..Like always, he'll call my hp instead of my mobile..I was bored at dat time while surfing for stuff abt Grey's Anatomy..practically, i've not much werk to do today..so another thing, i was nauseous wif dat wierd aftertaste feeling in my mouth for watever things i eat..be it chocolate or sweets or even biscuits..n my butt was cramped frm sitting down for too long..the only walk i took was wen i nid to go to the washroom..n dat counted for more than 5 times juz for today..

so back to story..Abang asked me whther im going home wif nana or not..i juz said maybe..told me he's going home first..i said ok..den suddenly he got angry wif me..juz becoz he cudnt hear wat i was answering..he said if he knows its gonna be like this, he wudnt call..i said wats his problem..i was speaking wif my normal voice though very tired kind..den he started rambling of me accusing him of this n that n im doing it myself..i told him dat he cud haf juz ask me to repeat again instead of saying those unnecessary remarks..juz becoz of my stupid little soft voice dat he cudnt hear properly, i was to be b lamed n anger vented on..n in the end when we put down the phone, no bye even..fed up kan!

blame everything on me..it sucked, u know..i cud haf juz thrown the phone away frm me n pretend nothing happened..but where's the rationality of it in front of my colleagues??..ya my colleagues..the worse lots..speak mandarin like who cares!!..despite the fact im the only malay around..talk behind myb ack some more..not dat they know that i understad eac n every word they were saying..soemtimes it makes me so angry dat i wish i did retaliate but i juz pretend like nothing...arrghh!! forget abt dem..veterans of SingTel..

i wish i cud Abang n make sure he says sorry to me..coz he's very stingy with that word..juz go thru tonite n by tomorrow morn, will act like nothing happened n dunbother to make amends also..n i wun be surprised if he blames me for not saying a word after being "tegur"..like i cannot accept anything he says or criticise!!

arrggghhh! im so angry that i wish i can get physical on something n vent my angst on it..crazy!!

forget it!..nobody listens niway..i shud be getting ready to go home now..n take all the blame as usual..

nothing changed for dat matter since the day i got married..before dat, it was so different..liar!

Sick!

2006-06-27T10:09:00.000+08:00

yup yup yup! either u think Im lazy or my life is a bore..partly true..last 2 wks after Zeki's wedding, Abang got really sick n I was up the whole night, tending to him..he was burning up but yet shivering though I switched off the fan..Den I knew wat he went thru..I got it too by Monday..was on leave dat day..end up I went to c doc n got 2 days mc..tues n wed..it was so terrible..believe me, the effects of the drugs only lasted less than 6 hrs..fever was damn high ranging 38.5 to 39.3 deg c..was quite worried abt my baby..but so far alhamdulillah..Abang was worried..he was gettin better though n took care of Syakir n me..sponging me wen my fever got too high..thank you so much, darling..the thing is Syakir was perfectly fine despite all those germs hovering around the house..

now the after effects of the virus is still terrible..im still having bad cough and lots of phlegm stuck in the chest..which makes it really uncomfortable to breathe and sleep esp at night..wats more taking a few flights of steps..wat a dread!!..i heard more n more people r getting sick..wonder who's dat idiot who started this virus n wudnt stay at home to contain himself/herelf..n spreading it like wild fire..

but actually the time spent in between resting in bed and fighting the virus was with my fav Judith Mcnaught romance novels..I've bought a new one "Once and Always" and finished it within 2 days..n of coz i took out my previous JM novels (whose stories are linked niway) and started reading them again..sigh..those 19th century stuff really makes you dreamy..horses, castles, handsome but bold dukes, enchanting princess n countess.."Kingdom of Dreams" with Scottish beauty Jennifer n the Wolf English Duke of Claymore, Royce Westmoreland..Right now, Im taking a own sweet time to reread "Almost Heaven"..Lady Elizabeth Cameron, poor Countess of Havenhurst and Ian Thornton, Duke of Stanhope..sigh..rebellious desires, star-crossed lovers with mysterious n intriguing adventures n passions..sigh..there's also "Whitney, My Love" and "Until You".. I could juz go on..

I still remember my first 18th century romantic novel by Julie Garwood.."The Bride"..I was introduced to the book by my sweetie cuzzie, Lin..n no doubt abt it..was the best book I've ever read..eventually i kept on buying book after book by Julie Garwood..try me n I haf read all her books..except for the latest one "Slow Burn"..a modern contemporary story..but others kept on borrowing my books without returning it back..so i guess, once Im finished with JM, I'll start back on my JG collection again..

reading my fav ones is an indulgence I give myself besides chocolates..as though time has no limits n nothing disturbs the peace im engulfing myself in..weekdays after finishing all the housewerk or while waiting for the washer to finish or even during commercial breaks..weekends except for the occasional calls frm Abang for food or Syakir for milk or food or juz plain attention..I dun read them elsewhere outside my home coz I can get really emotional n too engrossed with the story..wudnt be nice if someone sees my weird reaction while reading my book..

alrite den..i dun why these few days i feel nauseous again after a long time of absence..im eating less than i shud..no appetite..even my fav chocolates is giving weird taste in my mouth..im gonna pop some biscuits to ease the feeling..

oh yes, before i forgot, I wanna thank Nina for the Caramel Machiato last Thu..you had truly blessed me wif the caffeine dat was deprived for sooo loongg...n thanks for the 20%..u neednt do dat anymore since Dada is no longer at RC..wudnt be nice if her boss knew..n yes, Dada..Im still waiting for my antipasto..sigh, juz mention Starbucks n I cud actually run down to any store n get myself a caramel frap without whipped cream..i thot so only..hahaha..crazy..my boss will strangle me..

Alritey!!

bye bye E3..

2006-06-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

Ok..This morning I had an appt at KKH for a cardiac ultrasound..previous follow-up on baby's heart by Dr Q..the radiologist scanned and said baby has no problems but still too small to confirm..heard the baby's heartbeat for the first time juz now..saw the spinal bone, ribs, hands & legs..such a magical moment..baby wouldn't sit still though..perhaps becoz Abang was also there in the room to look at the scanning procedures..baby was trying to show Abang dat she's happy to see him..gender cannot be determined yet..insyaAllah at around 16 till 20 weeks..baby grows fast..i mean, last month the legs were shorter..but now, the legs are longer i think coz i saw them bend at the knees..and the arms palying in the "air"..masyaAllah..but the scanning was quite long..almost 1/2hr..i almost did fall asleep..but watever it is, baby is fine alhamdulillah..

after that, we went to "The first few years" baby shop to take a look at the stroller..Abang liked a VALCO stroller, costing abt $239, i think..then he asked abt the Phil & Teds (E3 Buggy Stroller)..the salesgirl told us that we can find it at paragon outlet instead..so since we still haf time before going back to werk at 1.30pm, we dropped by Paragon to look at the stroller..I was quite happy to know that the stroller is available in Singapore..Imagine if I were to haf it ship here..cud cost me sligthly over $1k..got to the shop and i immediately recognised the stroller n showed it Abang..It was big but juz as i had expected..the stroller itself cost $839 and the double seat (for toddler) cost abt $149..so total cost is abt $988..we saw it in red colour..if only i had the money, im pretty sure i'll buy it on the spot..no nid to think further..but as usual, Abang has his doubts & other opinion..if juz by looking at a $400 odd stroller is out of the question for him, wat is 988 then?..i was praying real hard so that he'll at least like n wud consider the stroller..

we looked at other strollers though..the shop carries most European brand stuff..from clothing to cots to strollers..Quinny strollers are also available..as usual, we looked around, thanked the salessgirl and walked out of the shop..I had quite a blow wen Abang mentioned that he prefers the one at KKH & cheaper also..i guess all the effort to search the net n learn more abt the stroller and even seeing n touching at the real thing, is was for wishful thinking..i didnt say much nor had the mood to carry on..but didnt wan to make it so obvious to Abang dat i was really disappointed dat he's not considering the E3 stroller at all..

well, if dat's the case, i guess i rather we dun spent anything..we cud juz recycle Syakir's orange pram..and wen we go out, i'll carry the baby in the carrier and let Syakir sit in his pram for the moment..

kay den..nothing else to say coz i sucked..

Alritey!!

Appt & Stress & More

2006-05-22T09:54:00.000+08:00

Pixs at at the zoo on 7 May 06..Wif Fauziah, Acit, Danial, Suryani, Ronnie & Irfan.

Sowie dat I didnt manage to update my posts..Been very busy..n not to mention stressful..Alhamdulillah, the thalassaemia results came back negative for both of us last Wed..so I guess I was juz too tired dat my red blood cell count was low..I had to go for a first trimester scan before my appt wif Dr Marianne..so my little one bouncing up n down..sucking the thumb..so cute..measurement abt 60mm..Dr M said baby growing well except for one thing..discovered a slightly thicken neck (NT-Nuchal translucency)..abt 2.7mm..normal range is 2.2mm or below..previously Syakir was more than 4mm..dats why I had to go for amniocentesis right away..but dis time, Dr M recommended me to go for the fetal screening with a blood test for a 90% test accuracy for Down Syn and other probs like heart, etc..But she told me not to worry coz perhaps baby is normal like my first one..insyaAllah..

Thus, she booked an appt with a consultant, Dr Quek, who is more specialised in this kind of scanning..He was located at the Private Suite..Class sey..This was the one I told Abang abt if I want to haf my second baby taken care of..but expensive n haf to book A1 ward..but service wise is very excellent..from the time you were greeted promptly at the counter, by the experienced staff nurse who took ur weight n height very patiently n speaks "kindly" to u, till the PN (Personal Nurse- to the doc) calls you to come in to the room..mind you, while waiting, you can haf a nice cup of hot milo or coffee or even tea..and the ambience was so peaceful..u dun haf to wait soooo looongg to see the doc n stuff..sigh..kay back to doc's room..was courteously greeted by the doc wif a firm handshake..offered me to sit down and explained every details dat I need to know before he started to scan..very nice doc indeed..

During the scan, he showed me where's the baby's head n body..with arms n legs waving n kicking in the air..thus, he measured everything and even showed me the nasal bone..this is one of the most impt factor of Down Syn..Down Syn babes dun haf nasal bone..I was so relieved, alhamdulillah..so after the scan, the PN even helped me to wipe away the gel on my tummy..then, later Dr Q printed the results n explained to me those percentage thingy..even asked me whether I got any other questions..So before end of consultation, he booked an appt to check my baby's heart in 3 weeks time n even presented 2 pix of my baby for keepsake..he said his nurse will inform me of the results together with the blood test most probably by this week..and all this cost me $350!!

Oh yeah..my right back is still aching n I took medical leave last Fri..n today, i dunno why I feel nauseous frm early morn till now..is it becoz of the Yeo's soyabean drink dat I took dis morn?..I ate a piece of kuih dadah n a samosa..n I feel like vomitting now..Im already into my 2nd trimester, so I hope it'll go away as soon as possible..Im eating a plain biscuit to curb the nauseous, which really helps..

Kay..gotta get back to werk..will udpate soon..

Alritey!!

NaUsEous tAkeS e LeAd..

2006-05-03T09:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm..abang forgot to bring the Tioman vcd again for me..will post the pixs soon as I'll personally will take the vcd n put in the bag myself tonite..uurrrgghh!!..had juz finish one medium "jemput-jemput" n 1 slice of french toast..malay version..the one u dip a small piece of cut-up french loaf into egg..Abang n I actually came early for werk n decided to haf breakfast at Armenian coffeeshop..I ordered a bowl of mee hoon soto with bagedil n hotdog..my usual order whenever I go there..but this morning I could only haf 3-4 spoonfuls before giving up..It was too damn salty..or is it juz me??..I dunno but I cannot eat anymore..wasted ah..

Nowadays, I prefer noodles to rice..Again dunno why..coz everytime after I eat rice, I'll haf dat wanting to throw up feeling..but I love porridge n noodles wif soup..I still haf my pantang frm my late father-in-law so as not to eat yellow noodles during my term..not good for me n the baby..I've lost the magnet Mak ask me to carry around..guess I'll juz get another one frm the bookstore nearby..

today, Abang n I will be going to KKH for another round of a more detailed blood test..last week I received a letter stating that they found abnormalites in my red blood cells..suspect could be thalassaemia..blood disorder...they are minor n major thal..those with monior thal may not even know they haf as they lead normal life..juz dat they feel lethargic n weak more often than ordinary people lah..n frequent headaches or migraine..for those with major thal, they require blood tranfusion every mth or best is to do a bone marrow transplant...Previously with Syakir, we werent ask to go for any blood test to check for thalassaemia..but as of 2005, every parent has to go thru at least once for this blood test..so they'll know n can detect the carrier earlier..for me, Im quite worried for this pregnancy, Im very lethargic n will feel sleepy almost throughout the day..n my migraine is more frequent n intense..so far I've not taken any medication for my migraine..I'll juz leave and bear wif it..but now I cannot handle the pain..so no choice but to take one pill..

dat day I was really craving to drink coke coz I couldnt handle the puking feeling any longer..we got some freebies frm the MayDay carnival at Downtown East..2 bags each including a pkt of popcorn, muffins, a bottle of iced coffee n a bottle of coke..When I saw the coke, I was already thinking alot of ice wif it..Once we reached home n after washing our face n feet, I took a large glass, topped it wif lots of ice and pour my tantalising coke drink into the glass...sighh..feels like heaven..syukur dgn nikmat..took my place on the sofa n sat back to relax n enjoy my coke..all this while I was craving for coke, I didnt buy or even ask Abang to buy for me..coz I dun wan to make it a habit to entertain my cravings to my heart's content..I've disciplined myself while wif Syakir before n I know I can do it again with this little one..but the high sensitivity feeling n emotions are still the same like before..hahahaha...

Not much werk to do today..as usual, my boss is not around..n Im feeling quite sleepy already..Wish I cud juz sleep on this table n no one can see or disturb me..sigh..Im going off at 3pm later for the blood test..pray dat all will be fine, insyaAllah..Sigh..Im craving for my Starbucks Extra hot Low-fat Caramel Machiato...sigh..cant take too much caffeine..sigh..

Alritey!!

Wat A Trip!

2006-04-27T16:07:00.000+08:00

Weeeee!! Juz came back from a well-deserved holiday trip to Tioman Island..Went on last Sat morn and reached home on Tue nite..everyone was very very tired but had a great time..got sunburn n my face is like cracking n peeling..not painful but ugly to look at..though we slathed on loads of sunblock..Syakir is abit darker though n red..but no peeling of skin yet...coz i put double the amt of sunblock on him than myself..hehehe...Abang too except he puts the least amt of sunblock throughout the trip..so he's also quite dark..

No pix yet coz I've not got it frm Abang..will update soon..Been to Tioman 5 yrs ago with Dada, Mama & Daddy..The resort, Idaman Beach Holiday Resort, was also the same like before except for more chalets being built up along the stretch of path nearest to the beach..the canteen is still the same..They had improved on the wooden jetty alot..the last time it was more "scary" coz there's lots of loose holes that u tot u might miss n slip into it..now it's much better but Im still not brave enuff to run on the jetty without dat feeling of losing ur balance..

We went swimming, snorkelling, trekking to the waterfalls..i didnt go snorkelling coz of the state Im in..furthermore, there's Syakir to look after..but I had swam to my heart's content..though not as far as I want to...coz Syakir keeps following me in deep to the water..so played safe n soaked myself near the shore..but it was still fun..Syakir had fun too..playing wif the sand n water...he likes to jump onto oncoming small waves n laughed at himself..so cute..but quite tiring for me coz I had to carry him most of the time coz he wudnt let me out of his sight unless he's busy playing Sofea n Shukrey..n sometimes the village boys..Most impt of all, it really makes me happy to see Syakir running n laughing around happily on the island..He had as much fun as I had..and he can say the word "fish" very clearly..Im proud!!

Abang took alot of pixs n had compiled it to a vcd on dat very nite we came back..he's so sweet..he helped to unpack most of the stuff from the bags..even went down to buy dinner for us..he didnt wan me to overtire myself..I washed some clothing n took care of Syakir n stuff n had my rest..I cudnt say much abt the trip coz my migraine is killing me while Im typing rite now..adding to my nauseousness..I'll try to include more pix so dat it'll explain much better than I do..;p!

Yesterday, Abang accompanied me for my KKH appt..Had the scan and was told that Im abt 9 weeks pregnant..so my estimated due date will be around end of Nov 06..Abang had to go for a blood test for thalessemia (blood disorder)..now its compulsory for every father-to-be to do the test at least one time..this is so to detect this blood disorder early for the baby n to check whether any of the parents is a carrier..it cud be minor or major one..kak wani has minor thalessemia..dat's why she tires easily due to the lack of red blood cells carrying oxygen around the body..niway, Dr Marianne (my gynae) told me dat there's a slight blood clot in the womb but if I dun experience any bleeding, it shud be alrite..she said it will go away (dissolve) as baby grows..but shud anything bleeding occurs or sharp pain in the abdomen, she told me to report immediately to the 24hr emergency clinic..insyaAllah my baby will be alrite..

oh yes..i thnk I've seen Dr Marianne before when I was having contractions in the delivery suite previously for Syakir's birth...I think she's the doctor on duty..I remember her coz she'd one of the smallest n sweetest doctor around n always come around to check for my dilations..so Im glad she'll be around again..n she's always smiling..Abang also like her coz she's not like Dr Sadhana..our visit always last for 5mins n we had waited for more than 1hr..but Dr Marianne talked to us, explain in details abt the scan, asked if we had any worries n so on..at least abt 10mins inside her room..worth it lah coz it means dat Im attended to properly..not dat I dun haf any questions to ask, but I dunno wat to ask yet..niway, she charges less than Dr Sadhana coz she's a specialist while the latter is a consultant..if I can save, why not?..hehehe..

kay lah..i feel like puking but i can't..im trying to control it..i think the minyak angin is losing its strength on me coz itz not working effectively as it shud be..or is it juz me?..aaaa...watever..insyaAllah by the 3rd or 4th month, this will go away..

Alritey!!

MiGrAiNe..

2006-04-20T14:34:00.000+08:00

(Md Syakir Arif when he was about 1.5 mths old)
I had a terrible migraine this morning..cudn't concentrate on my work..I finally took a panadol (prescribed by Dr Karen previously) and took a short rest at 12 noon..not short actually..slept for an hour..hehehe..It was really nice of Abang to buy lunch for me though I was abit irritated juz now..I told him dat Im not going out wif him for lunch coz I wanted to rest..He said alrite..I told him also dat wherever he wans to eat, I'll juz tumpang frm there..after a while, he called me asking me wat I wanted to eat..I asked him where he was intending to eat..He said he'll juz go anywhere dat I wan to eat..Burger King or LJS or Mac..I was irritated n said dat I dun wan any choices n dat he made the choice for me..Imagine people asking you to make a choice wen ur head is throbbing..might as well I make the choice in the first place..Niway, he bought for me a set meal frm Mac..I was grateful dat he took the trouble to buy lunch for me n didnt get angry or anything..Was guilty without a doubt..So I thanked him again n apologised for my rude awakening..wat a sensitive me!

niway, yesterday I went to buy a pair of trackpants for myself..ended up it was a bit tight for me..let Abang wear it instead..I've got myself a a pair of black sandals..Rider from Reebok..not bad..only 30 bucks..no red eyes frm Abang..hehehe..guess wat?..I finally managed to get the bags ready..I packed some of the things last nite..though itz only 60% but a good start..no doubt I haf to finish n get everything ready by tonite..tomorrow after werk, we'll get the bags n sleep over at Mama's place..coz we'll be going out to Mersing after morning prayers..abt 6.30am..

still haf some last minute shopping to do..but insyaAllah I'll make it..hahaha..nowadays, I'll be very sleepy wen I got home..dunnno why..Im not usually like dat..I'll be the first one to haf my bath n do the housework even till late nite before I go to sleep..but now, my body is very resistant n so r my eyes..so rite now wat I do is to take a short nap (even 15 mins will do) n wake up to refresh myself n do my normal housework inthe middle of the night..Abang is very nice to me rite now..He'll always help me to hang the clothes after wash if Im too tired or got other things to do..usually I'll do everything..this time round, hez very helpful..becoz of the little one inside me..so now I got the chance to ask him to help without nagging..hehehhe

alrite then..got stuff to work on..till tomorrow before my long-required break..

Alritey!

Gettin ready..

2006-04-19T14:15:00.000+08:00

(Syakir Arif wif his pillow & "Bob")
Arrgghh!..I've still not yet packed my bags for the Tioman trip yet..mind u I've to prepare a bag for Syakir n another for me n Abang..though I've already put those stuff I wanna pack juz outside the empty bag..Abang even bought a new hard-case trolley bag..not sure whether it's sufficient for both his clothes n mine..hmmm...haiyah...juz stuff it in lah..think Im gonna sleep really really late tonite..u know me, Im a perfectionist n I like to prepare things to advance..but the bad thing is, Im quite fickle-minded as well..nvm..

too bad, Nana n Adlina are not going wif us coz she said Abg Adam dun like to travel by boat..sigh..dat's the only way to get to Tioman wat..unless he wanna swim..hahahaha!! Nana wanted to go but wat to do..can't possibly leave her hubby alone rite?..next time Abg Adam..or maybe we can sedate him n smuggle him to Tioman..hahaha!!

I still haf got a no. of things to buy before the trip...such as a new pair of sandals (my current Clarks is gettin out of the way..waiting for a Birkenstock frm Abang..) and some long-sleeved T-shirts..oh yes!..and a small haversack for mini travel around the island later..so I dun haf to carry the big backpack around..duh!

alamak!..I haf to carry my own portable kettle..Daddy said hez not sure whether they provide hot water or not..but the water there shud be alrite coz I remember he said it comes directly from the waterfall nearby..baca bismillah, insyaAllah, takde apa2..rite?!

kaylah..we'll be going this Sat morning and be back by Tuesday evening, insyaAllah..so till then, let me haf this break n I'll come back wif wonderful memories..

Alritey!

For the first time..

2006-04-17T14:54:00.000+08:00

For the first time, Im writing to my new blog..welcome..welcome..though itz kinda like way too late to start one but who cares! Niway, me at werk rite now..not much to do anyway..for the moment..so I tot why not..

Firstly, I wanna thank Drogue Design/Blogskins for the skin..I like the lime green colour..and the butterflies..and the flowers..

Secondly, I wanna thank my sista, Dada, for letting me read her blog most of the time...so time to give back..some ah!..only she understands me far the most..

Alrite..thirdly, Im having another one soon..insyaAllah, by end of this year..nope, seeing the gynae next week after my trip to Tioman this coming Sat..Another gynae..not the previous one who took care of Syakir..Dr Marianne at KKH..sigh..shud I congratulate myself or wat?..somehow I feel dat I've not showered enuf luv for Syakir..And hez so attached to me than his papa..shud hear when he called me "mama"..so manja..rite now, he kinda like know something is going around and dat he wun let me out of his sight for more than 5 mins..dunno why..sometimes it does get on my nerve..I can't even bathe unless hez asleep esp during weekends..

I had a short video (courtesy of Hadi) wif him crying when he saw another video of me and him playing together at Mak's place...guess he missed me so much..I almost cried too wen I saw the video..so touching...wonder if I can post it here..

So now my appetite is bad..dunno wat to eat..hungry but no appetite..even my fav food..sometimes I do force myself to eat but couldn't finished up..oh yes, morning sickness is still under control n bearable..my Refresher (mcm minyak kapak) is always around..and if I do feel nauseous, I drink some plain water or eat biscuits..desperate measure is to eat sweets..I dun indulge in preserved plums or watever fruits there is..seriously, itz not good for ur body n baby..but i have a weakness for teh sarbat n anything chocolate..juz like wen Im having Syakir..but taking caution of wat I eat..dun wan any "bad stuff" to crop up..like diabetes or high lood pressure..very difficult..insyaAllah, all will be fine..

Alrite den..gotta go now..some werk to do..after dat can go for prayers..

oh yes!..I miss Adlina..didn't see her for a week..will meet tonite at Mama's place after werk..Syakir misses her too..Always ask "Where's Nina?"..

Alritey!!